Question::What was Deaner Talkin’ About
A- The number one most asked question so far. Aaron wrote that song about me, it’s one of the many songs with our names in the title, Leave Deaner Alone, I Saw Gener Cryin’ in His Sleep, Gener’s Gone, etc. But anyway, that song is about anxiety, before I even knew that the shitty feeling had a name to it. I used to have massive panic attacks in my early 20′s, especially in the morning, or late at night when I would have trouble sleeping, unreasonable fears about life, ridiculous, wild, horrible fantasy trips that ended in catastrophe. It’s an awful thing if you’ve lived with it and can relate. Aaron and I lived together back then and I would talk to him about it and he was very good at chilling me out. Eventually everyone experiences it at some point, usually before traveling, or before having to publicly speak, whatever. Acute anxiety is a bitch though, it means you live in a constant state of of panic, “fight or flight” syndrome they call it too. Anyway, I guess Aaron got a good dose of it himself one day and wrote that song. I was able to overcome it in time by doing the work, a lot of reading, therapy, all that shit. It’s been many years now since I’ve felt that way, except in tiny doses, during times that would rattle anyone’s cage. Now I can spot it, see it for what it really is, and just let it pass. Let it pass man.